
This
tattoo means a lot to me. After all, it
should being as it will be on my body for the rest of my life. Luckily for me, I don’t plan on my foot skin
sagging by the time I am sixty. People
are always criticized for tattoos. Some
I would agree are pretty stupid like getting your boyfriends name on your hip
or a butterfly on your shoulder that serves no significance and does not come
with a story. To me, tattoos can be
quite beautiful. For example, my friends
Holley and Heather Rose have a beautifully done tattoo on their foot of their
deceased fathers signature. I love being
around them whenever someone asks about it because I can see their faces light
up as the memories of this beloved man plays in their heads. It allows them to honor him and share the
good times they had with him, allowing these memories to stay fresh in their
mind. They also have a rose symbol above
their ankles that reminds them of the importance of family. These two are just wonderful and I admire
them so much, more than they could ever imagine. They have faced things no one should ever
have to deal with at their age and still manage to not only power through the
trials and tribulations, but they do so with a smile on their face and make the
people around them laugh and have a good time.
To me, it is the story and meaning of the tattoo itself that makes it so
wonderful and so unique. It’s a
permanent reminder of something that made such an impact on ones life that the
individual felt it deserved to be on their skin forever.
I have been
drawing my idea on my foot for quite some time now. So much so that people actually thought it
was already tattooed on me. Starting my
freshman year of college did not excite me.
In fact I was tempted to fail my senior year of high school so that I
could stay in Gainesville for another year, not seriously it was just a
dramatic threat to myself. Its not that
I didn’t feel mature enough to leave my family and friends, or that I was
insecure or anything but I was honestly just scared. My family, for those of you who don’t know,
is really tight-knit. I love my mom, I
love my dad, and I adore my siblings.
Everywhere we go and everything we do together makes me so happy. My parents are and always have been
supportive of everything I do. They came
to years and years of lacrosse, soccer, basketball, and softball games. Dance recitals, band concerts, award
ceremonies, and speeches I’ve given. My
siblings always put a smile on my face and we honestly have such a good time
when we are together. It breaks my heart when I hear stories about broken homes
because I could not imagine not having such a strong support system behind
me. We are a team and I don’t know what
I would do with out every single one of them.
In leaving for school, I didn’t want to make new friends because I loved
the ones I already had, and I didn’t want to live with someone I didn’t know,
but most of all I didn’t want to leave my church family. The church I grew up in in Gainesville played
a huge part in my life. I was there 3-4
days of the week, my youth director had always been like a big sister to me, I
sang in the church choir for six years, and my best friends were those I had
made there. The people there had such a huge impact on my life. Whenever I needed someone to talk to or
somewhere to go to get away from the stresses of my busy life, I could go to
Julies house and watch glee, or go to the church and be surrounded by people
who loved me. I prayed and prayed for God to bless me with at least one other
Christian person that together, I could dodge the temptations that college
would throw in my face. I prayed this
but did not expect it to happen, unfortunately.
I expected college to be this hellhole of a place filled with alcoholics
and deceptive people, all trying to pressure me to do things that my morals
would show opposite.
God is good. To this day, and for the rest of my life, I
will swear that the reason I ended up at UNF was by the grace of God. I had no idea where to even begin searching
for colleges, mainly because I was still bitter that I HAD to go to college,
and my mom constantly threw around UNF.
I had lacrosse tournaments in Jacksonville and we would occasionally
stop by and look at the campus. For
those of us who know UNF, I went on the weekends and thought that nobody
attended the school. I knew it was
smaller than UF, the campus I grew up knowing, but I had convinced myself that
a total of five people went to the school.
A good family friend of ours, Larissa Jonson, would always tell me how
much she was obsessed with the school and always encouraged me to keep looking
into it. I figured that if someone as
amazing as Larissa liked it, it had to be good, so I applied. A couple months later I found out got into
the university and I was so excited, but the application I was concerned about
was the one that would put me in the honors college. To my amazement, I got in! I started to accept the idea that I was going
to a good place and that God had been with me this far, so it must be a good
sign. The very first day, we spit up into
our honors groups and the amazing Kathleen Coughlin was my temporary
Facilitator, yet another act of God to calm me down and show me peace. Kathleen was part of my church family back
home and was always someone I could look up to as a role model, so seeing her
beautiful smile on my first day put my nerves to ease.

As
the semester progressed, I started loving the college more and more. I made a ton of amazing friends and our dorm
was so close that I felt like I was living with fifty or sixty of my closest
friends, and some even seemed like family.
The first person I got really close to was my friend and sister Heather
Deyarmin. We hit it off right away,
bonding over similar experiences and interests.
She is such a sweetheart and a lot of people could not refer to one of
us with out mentioning the other. We had
both pondered the idea of rushing or “going through recruitment” and submitted
our applications thirty minutes before the dead line. Little did we know what our future had in
store for us. Heather and I stayed up
for nights too excited to sleep and siking ourselves up for the whole
process. The first room I walked into
was that of the amazing Alpha Chi Omega girls, and the first person that took
my hand was Courtney Warner. She put me
right at ease. Courtney had also been a
part of my church in Gainesville, and even though she has no idea, I always
looked up to her. She is such a
beautiful person inside and out and doesn’t even realize the impact she has on
some people’s lives. She truly is a real
strong woman and is always so encouraging and loving just as a sister should
be. In order to bring this full circle,
I must bring in some other information and switch the focus for a little
while.
As I
said before, I was really concerned about not finding a church family like the
one I had back home. Larissa, having
been from the same church in Gainesville, begged me to come to the church she
attended in Jacksonville. Naturally, I
did, and I could not be more obsessed with it.
The preacher is amazing, the music is awesome, and the people are
welcoming, not to mention it was right across the street from the beach. I started to realize that both Kathleen and
Courtney attended the church too, so it must be good! After church, some people would go out to eat
which I was usually invited to by Larissa, in attempts to introduce me to
people being as she is the most social person I have ever met. I didn’t know
how important one of those people would be in my life. One of Larissa’s best friends was in Alpha
Chi, which I had just been invited to join.
Her name is Brittany Wiggin, and she is the light of my world. She is the epitome of a Big sister and is one
of the best things that have ever happened to me. She is a strong Christian woman and inspires
me to grow in my faith everyday. She is
a role model, an amazing listener, beautiful, fun, silly, serious, and every
single good quality of anyone you have ever met wrapped into a single
person. I am so blessed to have her in
my life because honestly, I do not know how I lived before I knew her. She is what keeps me sane most of the time
and always has good advice.
Coincidentally, she was also Courtney’s little which was an added bonus
because I got the most amazing big ever, and now I had the best grand big I
could have ever asked for. These two
have no idea how obsessed I am with them.
I can honestly say that I have not met two more amazing people,
especially to act as Big sisters to me, something I’ve never had.

As I continued me first year in college, the blessings
kept pilling on. One good thing would
happen right after another, I was scared at one point because I told myself
that something bad was going to happen because it was only fair. The people I met were amazing and have forever
changed my life. My sisters Dasha and
Ivy are so wonderful and always make me laugh, while challenging me on a daily
basis, in a good way. My friend Kaley
and I never have a dull moment together and sometimes I feel like we are sole
mates as weird as that may sound, but we just understand each other on a whole
new level. We can be silly and have
dance parties together, and be serious and cry and complain together, and we
can sit and comfort each other wen we are going through hard times.
Like I said, one good thing would happen right after
another. I soon found out that I had
been accepted to go on a study abroad trip to Athens, Greece with my honors
professor, Dr. Kaplan. This experience
has been more than I could have even fathomed.
I have experienced a whole different culture and met people I will never
forget. I formed friendships that will
last a lifetime and memories that will never fade.

I have put a lot of thought into this tattoo, as you can
see, and I feel really great about it. I
am getting a Christian fish on my left foot right underneath my pinky toe. For something that is only about an inch in
size, it possesses a lot of imposrtance.
It will serve as a constant reminder of how blessed I am and the
wonderful things God has given me in my past, my fisrt year in college, and in
my life to come. It will remind me “God
has a plan. A plan to prosper and not to harm you plans for hope and a good
future.” It will remind me of the people
that have influenced my life both spiritually and physically. It will, being on my foot, encourage me to
walk in the foot steps of Christ and be the person I want to be, not someone
other people want me to be. It will give
me opportunities to strike up conversations with people who do not know Christ,
and allow me to share my stories and listen to theirs. It serves as a daily sticky note if you will
of everything God has done for me in my life, and the strong and supportive
family I was blessed with. So for those
of you who are wondering what possessed me to get this tattoo, I hope this
sufficed. Now you know the power and
meaning, the importance and strength this one-inch object holds.